To Dolley Payne Todd
Orange Aug: 18. 94.
I recd. some days ago your precious favor from Fredg. I can not express, but hope you will conceive the joy it gave me: The delay in hearing of your leaving Hanover which I regarded as the only satisfactory proof of your recovery, had filled me with extreme [ ] disquietude, and the communication of the welcome event was endeared to me by the stile in which it was conveyed. I hope you will never have another deliberation, on that subject. If the sentiments of my heart can guarantee those of yours, they assure me there can never be a cause for it. Is it not cruel that I should be obliged to mingle with the delicious [ ] your letter the pain [ ]
[ ] I cannot dismiss my fears that his illness may at least be prolonged. On the most favorable supposition, I can not venture to expect that he will be able to travel in less than 10 or 12 days. I should not hesitate to set out without him, tho' in several respects inconvenient were it not forbidden by his utter ignorance of our language, and my being the only person here who knows a word of his; so that in case his illness should continue his distress as well as that of those around him would be inexpressible; to say nothing of the difficulty of following me in the event of his getting well. This adverse incident is the more mortifying as I had spared no efforts and made some sacrifices, to meet you at [ ] than I hoped when we parted. I limited [ ]
[ ] set out. If he so far recovers that I can leave him, without being able in a few days, according to appearances, to travel, I shall then endeavor to proceed without him, and let him make his way after me as well as he can: In the mean time, allow me to hope that this unavoidable delay, will not extend its influence to the epoch most [ ] and to repeat the claim which I apprised [ ]